I'm not really looking for a relationship right now.
I just want someone to keep me company. I want someone to put time and effort to make me smile. Somebody to talk on the phone with all night about anything. I want to feel wanted by someone. I want to get butterflies everytime i see that one person. I want to feel special. I want to make someone as happy as they would make me.
I miss you so much. Everyday, i think of how different things would be if you were still here. Since you left, everything’s changed. It’s almost been two years, and i’m not even close to getting over the fact that you’re gone. I’m just getting use to it..
Best friend, i miss you. I never wanted you to leave. I still needed you here. You were always there for me. Now that you’re gone, i don’t really have a best friend i could turn to. But i guess that even though you aren’t here, you’re watching over me, like an angel.
Why? Because i’m afraid of getting attatched. When i get attatched to someone, it always ends up bad. So please, don’t take it the wrong way. It’s not that i don’t want you in my life. I’m just being careful this time. I don’t want to get hurt again. Because you might just end up leaving.
I think you forgot all about me. You don’t know i exist anymore. You’ve replaced me with someone new. I’m not a part of your life anymore. Days go by and i probably don’t ever cross your mind. You don’t even care anymore. And you know what sucks? I still care. I still remember everything we’ve been through. I didn’t forget about you. You still cross my mind. You still exist.
where we’d just stay up on the phone with each other, talking about absolutely nothing until it’d turn into nonsense, & then sleepy murmurs. Where we’d have a bajillion inside jokes together, or laugh randomly for no apparent reason. We were so connected, so unseperable. What happened?