That stage where you just don’t want to do anything. You don’t feel like talking to your friends, siblings, or even parents. You just mope around actually not giving a damn for the first time. It doesn’t matter who hurt your feelings, you just stay in that mode for no reason. It doesn’t go away easily and it randomly comes whenever it please. You just want to be alone and cut from the outside world.
After you die, it is believed that you have 7 minutes of brain activity left inside you, and in the 7 minutes you experience your entire life over, in a kind of dream… Because in a dream time is stretched.
So if this is the case, what if right now you’re in that 7 minutes. How do you know if you’re alive or just reliving old memories.
Nothing really happens to actually make you sad, but you’re just sad. I guess its cause everything bad just builds up and breaks out at the same time. But I just hate the fact that its beginning to happen more often. I get sad out of no where and I have no fucking idea why. I don’t know whats wrong with me anymore.
Lately I’ve been sighing a lot. Not the good kind of sigh when I have a smile on my face, thinking about something happy sigh. The sigh when you’re thinking about something sad and you frown kind of sigh.
Okay i don’t make sense and no one knows what I’m talking about lol
I don’t think anyone understands. It’s this bittersweet feeling. You want him. You love him. He means the world to you. You can’t help but smile when you think about him. But at the same time, you cry. You feel it, the pain in your chest. And he’s the reason for the pain. Really, I just don’t understand. Maybe it’s the love that over weighs the hurt he causes. Because you know it’s worth it. All of it. That in the end, it will be okay. It just takes time.