I need to get away. I need to figure out who I really am. I think I’m just trying to make myself believe that I’ve got everything under control, when in reality, I’m clueless. I’m lost and I have no idea what to do next. I don’t even know.
Cause i got emotional. LOL
And I’m not your baby so shut up.
I hate it when people tell me they can see the sadness in my eyes. Or hear the sadness in my voice. I hate it because it just means that I’m not trying hard enough to hide my feelings. Which means people will see right through me. See the depressing side of me. I hate that.
I think it’s hard for me to let go because i simply just dont want to. I find myself wanting to stay stuck in the past, which is not a very good thing. Maybe it’s because holding on to the past makes me think that it will come back or stay. When in reality, that won’t happen. I’m just afraid to let go because I’m worried that I won’t ever find that happiness that I once had. I don’t even know if I make sense right now. But yeah.
I don’t know why I even try anymore.
But I’m sleepy
Is it bad to go to sleep horny?